Monday, July 02, 2007

...Confusion...

Ok, I've been speaking to Quasimodo since February...
The Monday before my birthday, I came for the first time in years. I don't think even Sweb managed to ever make me reach the big O so good feeling.
I knew I was attracted to Quasimodo the person, reading his posts and profiles on different networking sites, I was being drawn to him more and more.
One thing that turns me on is intellect. I know I'm not the smartest and I definately have more blonde moments than the average person, but, I love listening to people trying to teach me interesting and complex things.
To top it off, he's a freak! Such an oddball, I can't begin to explain how weird he is. He's different, and I really liked that.
But, at the same time, I still was obsessed about Ratboy... and I used to tell Quasi everything about my Ratboy problem, even though, I knew at night time, I'd be secretly wanting Quasi to tell me about his fantasies, which would immediately get my pants wet.
It's been 4 months now, and everything's happened so fast;
he gave me my new identity, Nessy.
We've had our first date.
and... I think we both have developed some sort of feelings for each other.
He's a lot more "soppy" and talks really lovey dovey to me at times, whereas before it was just pure desire "I want my dick in your pussy". Yes, it really is that explicit - but it doesn't make me gag and want to slap him. It makes me want him more.

I was meant to meet up with him for the 2nd time today.
But, Karma works in weird ways, and it didn't work out.
We spoke on the phone, and after nearly a month, I came. The orgasm itself was really short. But considering the mess I made, and realising how much I've fallen in love with his voice alone, was good enough for me.
He took it one step further and after we calmed down, he said that I was cute, funny, lovely, nice etc etc...

Does this mean that he does like me in other ways htan just sexually?
Is it ok for me to think about him 24/7 when I'm sure he doesn't?
How do I ask him where I stand?

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