Ambitions...

Coming from a middle/low class bengali family, i've had ambitions since i was tiny... (yes i'm still tiny now, but shush!)
I wanted to be a doctor from such a young age, i can't remember how i started thinking about it...
I'm thinking my dad's health must have something to do with it, he's diabetic and has other health implications...
I used to watch him in the mornings, taking his blood pressure, checking his blood sugar levels and injecting himself with insulin. He'd never let me do it for him, so i'd just watch and learn how and what he did.

Once my dad heard that i wanted to be a doctor, he backed me 100%, he bought me a microscope set, and everytime we went to doctors he'd ask the doctors for any advice on my behalf...

by the time i was 15, i really thought i had a chance in the medical world...
i was put into the middle group of science gcse, yet during classes and term time i was gettin higher marks than those in the top group.
However due to illness my actual Gcse mark was BB, not high Bs, not low Bs... i was right bang in the middle..
when i carried on with the sciences for AS level, i was told by all the teachers i would struggle... and struggle i did...
and so my chance to get into medicine was gettin slimmer and slimmer as my homework pile was gettin higher and higher...
i then remembered that i did work experience in Specsavers, and thought that Optometry could be a line that i went through , as it only required Physics... but when my A/S results came through, i decided to leave my dream of the medicine world totally.

I then wandered around for 6 months with no hopes, no ambitions, nothing... i then became heavily involved in volunteering around my local community, and i began to see the work of youth work... and it was something that i COULD do, and could possibly WANT to do...
and so i began to change my CV and Personal Statement around so it was focused on Youth Work...
December 2005 and i presented in one of Bristol's biggest Asian show...
and my confidence soared... i was approached by Organisations and local Radio to present one off events...
As i started to get the hang of it all, i started considering this as a possible career path... i had taken interviews for channel 4, and also auditioned for a new show called "skins"...
i was contacted by a producer who does shows on Zee muzic... things were looking up...
and then i got my own Radio show on local community station...

so now, i have 2 dreams...
one - go into youth work and help out kids with whatever...
the other - go into media and get into presenting...

all i can do is try and make my chances of gettin both as big as possible... the rest i leave to Allah...

but wouldn't it be cool if i had a show on zee muzic?!?!