Psychic??

I was speaking to my mates yesterday about my ultra sound experience... and my Virgin Pregnancy

I went to Doctors today, and i explained to the Blonde Stranger that ToM hasn't visited me in over 2 months now...

The expected "you sure you're not pregnant? Have you had any sexual relationships?" came... and i laughed and shook my head violently... (Un)fortunately not!

She asked me if i had been gettin acne or facial hair... i thought she must mean my PMS signs, and i pointed to my head sitting on my cheek... "well, yea, can't you see??? i've got spots, a tasche, and i've been bloated for over a month now!"
"Ok, but your acne and facial hair, has it been gettin worse? your hair growin any thicker than normal?"
again, i pointed at my upper lip, feeling the need to roll my eyes... "yea, look! it's a full grown tasche!"

"ok Giti, it might just be a hormonal imbalance"
Just then i remember to add in, "I've had irregular periods forever, i once even was reffered to a gynaecologist, who put me on the pill"
She quickly added to her scribbles "Ultrasound" and underline it... THREE TIMES!
"Giti, you may or may not have polycystic ovaries, it's nothing serious, just follicles growing on your ovaries which may be preventing you from having your periods. We'll need to do an ultra sound to see, is that ok?"
She looked at me with caring eyes... yet, i felt like she was the biggest bitch i ever met...
She said it wasn't serious, but in my neurotic head, all i heard was "you're going to die Giti..." (melodramatic i know, but i can't help think that about every illness i get, even the common cold!)

She started tapping away at her computer, giving me a chance to ... think...?
but i wasn't, i concentrated on the pictures on the walls, anything to distract me from the horribleness of the news i was given just a second ago...

She turned back and asked sharply, "would you like us to scan the tummy? or probe your vagina"...
that question was soo random, i just stared at her...
"i take it you'd like the tummy scan?"
"er.... yea! please! i don't like being probed!" i laughed...

walking home, i didn't think about it at all, i was thinkin about how i was missing my Spanish lesson and that i had to catch up on soo much college work! Life is unfair being a student!

i got home, and started to research....
and the results have lead me to have tear stained cheeks and once again, i've not done my business homework...
I don't wanna go to college tomorrow, but i have to...
i just want to get the blood test and scan over and done with...
Hopefully the 28th will come quickly...

....I'm actually really scared...

Subhanallahi Wa Bihamdi Subhanal Lahil Azeem
La Hawla Wa La Quwwata Illah Billa...

It's weird though, how i was speaking about it all yesterday... must be psychic vibes, hai na?